yesterday was a super long day. went for homecoming in fuhua. the talks was like so damn long. only managed to watch the performance by the lion dance. then off we [doreen,kim,me] went to service. and im so shocked by doreen's generosity. as we were running late already, she suggested taking a taxi AND SHE PAID FOR THE TAXI FARE! oh my oh my.

SO FUNNY RIGHT?! aha. well, on the way back to mrt station saw sth really cool.

music notes on wall:

and we almost didnt make it for the last train cause ym and shoujun were playing hide n seek with us. =.-

reached home almost 1am.n shoujun send me home cause he was scare that i'll saw that particular penis with urine coming out again. HAHA.

and there's a cat outside my house doorstep ytd. the cat seems terrified by me. but im actually terrified by it. =.-

anyway, me and kim waited frm near 10am to 1pm in school for NOTHING! we are supposed to wait for kim's skirt. but that damn freaking/not handsome guy tricked us!what's worst, HE JUST WAVE BYEBYE TO US after saying that the time that the stocks will come has been changed to 3.wth.i feel like strangling him at that point of time.STUPID!!

well actually, we did constructive stuffs while waiting. eat eat and EAT! played diao yu. chatted. lamed.

=.-

n we ps-ed cynthia they all.im not proud of it though.it feels bad


i dont know what's happening to me.sudden surge of frustration.no mood to do anything or to go ANYWHERE.

perhaps i just detest ppl with no unique character but just copied directly with NO modification from other people. perhaps it's considered a change to the better for them. but i just hates it when i saw that happening. maybe i should feel happy for them.whatever the reason it might be. i think i should.well, at least i can try to.

and i hate to put on a facade that is so not me. and i feel so fake SO FAKE. how i wish i can dispense all those things and reveal all my true thoughts. there's too many consideration. i have to be sensitive towards others. " ah well, life is like that" is what i would always say to myself when such things are too overwhelming for me. i hope i have the courage to initiate confrontation. not those confrontation that u may be thinking, is that kind of confrontation that im saying. ahh whatever. i dont wish to run away from reality/unhappy stuffs. i want to run after happiness instead

okay, enough of all those rubbish. well, JJ NIGHT WAS FANTASTIC/FABULOUS/FUN! i sweat all out from all those jumping here and there, dancing, cheering,singing and blahblah things! FUNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!

and everything has a consequences.after so much fun, im down with sorethroat AGAIN!. terrible! and i saw someone's "penis with urine coming out" on my way home after jj night. the guy was like so engrossed in the process. i nearly scream. lucky i didnt. it's like so long and disgusting.oh my!! how lucky can i be. =.-


these 2/3 days are the sickest days in my life! URGH! can anyone tell me what's wrong with my mouth. it hurts like...like OUCH!! it's not the throat that hurts so much it's the upper part of the mouth near the throat. and there's sth growing on my gum. there's a burning sensation in my mouth; pain until numb.

AND i cant eat delicious food! and i missed the oat prawn, abalone and shark fin that my mum cooked cause of my condition. and now i have no appetite. porridge everyday. =(

i was actually planning to have fun this weekend; small gathering with sec friends and shopping with mum. how am i gg to accomplish that with my condition now. i cant even speak properly.

UTTERLY SADDED
how can i survive school tml.


ANYWAY, i was sooo busy these few days/weeks.

1) 13feb- 08s06 class lunch at pastamania.went shopping n bowling after that.
2) 14feb-VALENTINE~ aha. dinner with og at sakae. saw a super weird little boy immersed in his own world. and cw and bs did sth super dots. aaha
3) 19feb- 08s06 class gathering. camwhore in school then off for bowling. MY FIRST TIME BOWLING!! played 3 games and i scored 40,50 and 51 respectively.not bad right!? after that went arcade play. FUN!
4)20feb-first day of jae.yog meeting-cheered n danced
5)21 feb-yog rehearsal in padang.i was so HIGH
6)22feb-YOG ACTUAL DAY.went to padang to be the facilitator. was so SUPER SUPER HIGH and HUNGRY and DEHYDRATED and EXHAUSTED. i was dancing till so shuang.ahah. seeing ppl joining us brought me a sense of satisfaction. i simply love this kinda life! WOOT. most importantly, SINGAPORE WON!!
7)23 feb-throat+top of my mouth pain like nobody's business but it's worth it. pizza/mac/kfc treat to all those yog leaders frm principal. and i ate only one drumstick.my throat just couldnt take it.aha.


well, everything turned out fine.
tobecontinued.


please dont rip away something from me when i've finally got what i think i should have in my life. i hope things arent that serious. i hope everything will be fine. i hope this isnt true. i was so stunned by what he told me. i am so damn worried,but i dont dare to show it. im holding back my tears, when he broke the news to us, when he told me to study hard and that im old enough to be independent. i dare not even think about life without him. i shouldnt be thinking of it actually, everything will be alright. right?

someone, please tell me all these aint true


lalala. well, so many things have happened in a relatively short period of time.abt one month to be exact. has been enjoying my life until a few days ago.i'll not mention abt unhappy stuff.at least i'll try.

well, jjc was super fun! the orientation camp was great.and i got to know ppl from og5. they were all great! all those gathering/outing with them was really enjoyable. was wondering whether we will still be so close after pae when everyone will be gg to their separate ways.

not only that, o8s06 was fun too. a bunch of jokers. im looking forward to our outing!

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LOL! more elaborated update when i have received all the photos alright. guess i should get myself a thumbdrive and ask them to save it inside. faster and more convenient. =D


went back to co with winnie and shurong on sat. I OVERSLEPT! and i dont know why. i remembered changing the alarm time to 9.45 but it was not functioning. anyway, they were playing jay song. and so many things have changed, and also not changed. so many new faces cum new arrangement and, surprisingly, i only saw THREE zhong ruan. oh gosh. their seniors aka corina and kim will be heartbroken. the only thing that hasnt change was laozhou's style of practising and his joke.forever that battery operated monkey. =.- LOL!

beesuan was there too. and we stayed throughout the whole practice

anyway, was playing a game on psp-silent hill. SO SUPER DUPER SCARY ALRIGHT!! i was like screaming here and there while playing it, heart pounding super fast. if my sister wasnt watching beside me cum catching psp, i would have threw the psp on the floor whenever the monster came. urgh. exciting