well, sudden temptation to blog, perhaps by the overwhelming emotions in me.

firstly, i've read some of my junior's blog namely zt and evon. and i found out that they actually shared some same thoughts as me. some of the hu juniors, specifically two. that are totally NOT serious in doing things and showing their damn attitude when they are caught doing the wrong things. i really dont understand what's going on in their mind. seriously they are not good, esp for one.dont she feels bad and inferior compared to others?frankly speaking,i am already pissed off with them a long time ago, but im not as brave as zt and evon to disclose my feelings openly.but if i tell them how i feel about them and how incorrigible is their attitude, will they listen?will they give a damn?and seriously, some other juniors are also showing their attitude gradually, and i mean some. they are just NOT SERIOUS, and what..syf is just a few days from now. u think we are good?..NO!.i cannot blame them totally if they dont know because all the critism are showered on the SL. it's a damn big responsiblity i know. but i seriously have no idea how to get the group up to standard when the attitude sucks in the first place where people DO NOT wish to cooperate. other people say im too lenient, not fierce enough. but, why in the first place i choose to be like this? because i do not want juniors to come with a happy mood and go back with hatred or whatever negative feelings. forget it, im jus not fit to be a SL.

ok, im glad that some of them really want to clinch the gold. but bear in mind, actions always speaks louder than words

next, another issue of attitude.im very sensitive towards people's attitude.how i wish everyone will have self discipline. i cant say i have. but at least i try to have..i tried so hard, with so much determination to have a weekly study group. but smashed by the reluctancy of people to attend. so what's the use?. i know they are tired..i understand, im tired too.dont i?but at least, show me, show me that u all wish to continue.

lastly, and finally a happy thing for me to bring up. i've felt an intense importance of friendship on thurs. and im so glad i've a bunch of true friends who's so so so sosoooooooooo SWEET

it was recess, and i've serious menstrual cramp which was disastrous. i told doreen and suddenly burst out sobbing..lols.and everyone, namely, hooikim, corina, kk, zm, pam, jocc came crowding around me. trying to psycho me..i mean to tell myself it's not pain.and before that, they were like going around to look for menstrual pill to alleviate the pain. and the blur sotong corina continue to "psycho" me before the ss test starts. and i also remembered jocc's hug..so niceee~..LOLS hahax..i mean..it's heart warming..

and the next day, doreen and pam gave me chocolate as they said it can reduce the pain..wow touched. then next i've heard that zm borrowed menstrual pills from his sister. wow.double touched

so who says pain is a lonely journey that each person has to take alone? im so triple glad and happy that i've true friends around me who never hesitate to help me. at least, they accompanied me through the pain.

THANKS

doreen
corina
hooikim
jocelyn
pamela
zhaomian
and.............
kk for looking for the pill ya?..from eileen?.LOLS